Sunday, July 27, 2008

Trust God...

My pastor today shared a great message about TRUSTING GOD! He used a lot of great scriptures that I have known for a long time growing up in the church. They had new meaning for me today and that is what I love about church and the scriptures...you can never stop learning and growing!

Proverbs 3:5-6 TRUST in the Lord with ALL your heart and LEAN NOT on your OWN understanding; in ALL your ways acknowledge HIM, and he will make your paths straight.

He talked about how God teaches us to trust in Him when we come to the end of our rope! Last night as I laid down to bed, I sure did feel like I was at the end of my rope when it comes to my kids and their obedience and respect to me as their mom. I prayed about it and really felt like God was going to help me through this and really help me to teach my kids.

Isaiah 40:31 But those who HOPE in the LORD will RENEW their STRENGTH. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and NOT grow WEARY, they will walk and not be faint.

There was a lot more to the message, but the last part of the message was a challenge or question to think about...

Which one of MY ways might I be "holding" back from acknowledging God?

I am still thinking about this one...I know there are a lot of areas in my life that I try to control or take care of on my own...but I NEED God to give me that strength and I NEED to TRUST HIM more and more each day!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

what to do????

I just don't know what to do anymore....

My kids can't get along for 5 minutes of the day. They fight, hurt, tease, and nag each other constantly. I know I NEED to do something about it and I just don't know what to do. I have read so many books on parenting and discipline. I have talked to many friends about this very issue. I guess it boils down to being scared of failing...of not staying consistent (like I know I need to). I want them to listen and obey and treat each other with love and respect. It is so hard...I have yelled most of the day at them. Thank goodness my parents came over for a few hours to visit because I was losing my mind. Of course they were pretty good while they were here. As soon as they left I took the kids to pick out a 99 cent movie at Blockbuster and we got some things for dinner and ice cream for dessert. We got home and of course they started fighting again. Before bed I blew up at them once again because they were fighting during teeth brushing...we do that every night, you would think they would have the system down by now. I tucked them each in and told them tomorrow is a new day and we are making changes around here....I am determined to make those changes and stick to them.........I think for so long I told myself not to be too hard on them, they've been through a lot with the divorce and my 2nd marriage...no more excuses. I need to discipline them because I love them and want the best for them. Don't get me wrong here...I do discipline. It's just not consistent and obviously not working. Ahhhhh....

Off to bed I go to pray and read my Bible and figure some things out!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

BFF's...

The other day Drew & Autumn were playing outside with blankets and backpacks and all kinds of little stuff (junk)! I asked them what they had in their backpacks and Autumn showed me a card that she had given to Drew...it was a Valentine card from Nana & Papa. They both took their cards and changed them to be to each other. Than Autumn says, "Me & Drew are BFF's!" I asked, "What does that mean (just wandering if she really knew)?" She said, "Best Friends Forever!" Then they grabbed hands and walked away together! Oh so cute!

Those are the moments I want to remember! Not the fighting and bickering that has been going on way too much around here. Why can't we just all get along and be BFF's all day every day!!!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Lots going on...

We have been a busy family this weekend! Craig is off work until the 14th because of a bulging disk in his back/neck. He is going to Physical Therapy three times a week to get back in place. Having him home 24/7 has been good and very different. I find myself so lazy when he is around. I don't keep the house picked up or anything like I usually would when he is gone.

Thursday night we took the kids to the Plymouth Fireworks at McLumpha Park! It was great just late at night! We got there around 8:30pm (Drew & Autumn fell asleep on the way there which was good). We played on the big hill until Grandma Neville (Lou) arrived to watch the fireworks with us. Finally around 10:15pm they started...We got home around 11:00pm. The kids went right to sleep and we did too!
Yesterday, on the 4th of July, we stuck around home until around 3:30pm. We went to my parents house to grill some hot dogs and then went to see Wall-E the movie! It was a good movie and the kids enjoyed liked it.

Today we are once again just hanging around the house. Played outside with the neighbors awhile then came in to eat. We are going to Rob & Ellen's later for a BBQ with our small group. That will be nice. I am not sure how much Bible Study time we will get tonight but it is nice to just get together.

Tomorrow is the end of the weekend but we have plans again...after church we will eat a light lunch and then around 3pm do a BBQ with Michael & Katherine across the street. Their girls, Jessica & Miley, are fun and we are hopefully gonna get the slip in slide out and just relax some more!

I am ready for Monday when we can get back into a routine and I can hopefully get motivated to clean up our big mess of a house! The kids have been playing in the Living Room with "tents" they made out of blankets and furniture! They love it and if they are playing nice together, I don't care about the mess!